Hello Self Explorer
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Hello Self Explorer ↞
I’m so glad you’re here! Even though you’re tired…
(And tired of being tired)
Of waiting for life to really start.
Maybe you thought checking off the boxes of “success” would lead to your fulfillment. Or that you could go through life letting everyone else make decisions for you and be happy with what you have.
But that’s not exactly what happened.
Though you are mostly content with the life you have, there is this lingering feeling that something is missing; that you may have stayed in a place of safety, where you are competent and skilled but without truly highlighting your gifts.
Maybe you are holding on old and outdated identities rather than setting your soul on fire with the fullness of life’s possibilities. Or you’ve let other people decide the direction your life will take, settling for less than what you are capable of creating. Leaving your needs and inner desires unmet, avoided, or completely cast aside.
Sure, you’ve made some big decisions in the past but they were more of a reaction to current circumstances rather than moving you towards your big life vision.
Hi, I’m Marlee, I support change makers design their life around body enjoyment, and a deep connection to Self.
…and I have sooooooo been there:
Lost in the busyness of everyday life
Feeling behind of your friends and peers
Frozen in inaction and overwhelm
Unable to meet your own high expectations
Burnt out from trying to keep up
Overthinking your plans and under living your life
Perhaps you tried making elaborate plans, blocking off your schedule, or simply going along with the choices you’ve made up until this point. You go out of your way to help everyone else in your life, staying busy so that you avoid any bit of space or boredom as a way to forget about where you are in life.
Maybe you’ve tried going to yoga classes, attempting to meditate, and always keeping positive. But it feels empty, fake, and not really who you want to be.
You KNOW the basics of what to do but can’t seem to apply your knowledge to your own unique life to find your own pace.
I used to rush through life, jumping from one thing to the next. I was so unaware of myself, always interjecting my opinion where it was not invited, described as blunt and sometimes critical by friends. Whenever I did let myself just sit, I would need to multitask in order to feel productive.
I was quick to complain about whatever current crisis was happening in order to avoid taking responsibility for my own choices and the part I had to play.
It wasn’t until my Dad got sick in 2018 and later passed away in 2019 that I was struck down by how unaligned I was with my Self, how disconnected I was to my needs, desires and energy, and how I was completely avoiding difficult conversations and making any big life decisions.
I was called to slow down.
I could no longer stuff down my emotions and pretend they didn’t exist; I had to ACTUALLY feel them. The energy I *thought* I had diminished, and yet I kept pushing ahead.
I yearned to put my time towards my own interests and passions, into a new direction and not just the same things I have always done.
Most importantly, I realized how little I actually knew my Self.
Slowly over the following two years, I withdrew from life (somewhat timely given the world situation). I set my sights on managing my energetic state, learning about whatever I wanted, and creating a new foundation for my business and life.
The emotional processing made way for the shedding of layers of old skin, masks and all the armour.
I was finally able to accept that I am here to be changed; to be an example of creative curiosity and mutation. Through fresh eyes I see the path I am walking as it slowly unfolds; each step shaking loose the conditioning and domestication that no longer serve me.
Meeting your basic needs of movement, nutrition and sleep is only the baseline of your functioning.
Energy comes in many different forms.
By tuning into your body’s needs of safety and comfort, you will soon discover the messages from the wisdom contained within this skin suit you inhabit. So often bypassed, these insights can include the trauma, stress and stagnancy stuck in your body from emotions unexpressed and self-constructed stories from the mind.
As you RELEASE the surface layers, new depth is discovered as you connect with the energy YOU bring to your life.
You REALIZE where consciousness lives in the body, the gifts and wisdom of your unique energetic core.
When you embrace our humanness, with all the emotional highs and lows, you allow yourself the time to REST, resetting your own pace and being present to life’s many changes.
From 2015 to 2022, I was a Practicing Kinesiologist with the BC Association of Kinesiology. My studies of strength training and injury recovery were primarily focused on functional movement and sport performance. I started a fitness business and used Kinetic Link Training and play to support my individual and group clients.
Seeking a more well rounded offering, I began looking closer at nutrition, working towards my Nutrition Coach Certification in 2018. But there was something still missing. Surely becoming more focused on the details of the energy equation, though somewhat obvious in the fitness industry, couldn’t be the common thread between.
With my personal life taking up more of my attention, I began on the path of slowing down, intentional living, and creating a vision for my Ideal Lifestyle.
This was the start of my Self-Study. Having removed the parameters of exercise, I dove into topics of business, coaching, and various forms of energy work. During this time I became a Quantum Success & Life Coach and collected tools such as Reiki Level 1, Emotional Freedom Technique, and Emotional Timeline Technique, Western Astrology, and, my favourite, Human Design: The Science of Differentiation.
Though I gathered a lot of knowledge, I had yet to truly integrate and embody the learnings. So back into hiding I went, back into solitude, only this time with so much more awareness of my energy and Self.
As I applied these principles of energetics, reflection practices and processing tools, I dug deeper into my sense of pace.
With curiosity of altered and euphoric states I became a Certified Trauma Conscious Breathwork Facilitator to provide a container to guide the release of stuck energy and access the wisdom the body holds through the Body-Spirit connection.
I’m still getting used to going at my own pace, meeting my basic needs, and witnessing the way my energy wants to express itself.
I continue to notice old patterns of rushing, poking in uninvited, and overly identifying with productivity.... I am a human after all!
I am no longer convinced that I must fit in in order to belong. Though some of my closest relationships have drastically changed as a result, I know that the ones who stuck around, and those just finding me, are the ones who truly see me.
And I see you seeing me so thank you :)
Fun Facts:
I am a Triple Sag (Sun, Moon, Rising)
Luna is my Yellow Lab furbaby
Either music or audiobooks on at all times… or streamed TV!!
I’m all about them deep chats - 2/5 Self-Projected Projector vibes
Happy places: nestled in outside or curled up in my living room
Crafty AF, knitting, stitching and beading are my current jams
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